I’ve noticed that some of the things in the world that are truly trying to push against corruption, destruction and laziness are exactly the things that get the worst reputations. This is an added difficulty, and one that seems at this point in our history inherent in the struggle to uphold value and forward movement for all. It’s so sad that some of the closest people to me, out of what I assume roots in a deep seated and perhaps less-than-conscious fear, decide that what I’m pushing for is somehow unethical and undesirable, and that their current standards are sustainable.
I believe the reality is that we are all contributors in the state of our world, and one need not look very far to see that our world is not in a very good way.
This is what I wish I could struggle against. Unfortunately, I struggle against those very people whom I love instead, efforting to help them get what they really want most, and don’t see that they themselves are holding back.
M.
Friday, February 26, 2010
So sorry about the stall in the Street Team, guys, we are working on getting it back online. What have you guys been able to do so far? Has any part of the Street Team been working yet?
Mark.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Does anyone else think I should overhaul this site? I’m wondering if it has too much music stuff and not enough about my acting career? Anybody else agree with that?
Any suggestions??
Mark.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
My dear aunt Patricia Speer has died, leaving behind my 3 cousins and my uncle. She will be dearly dearly missed. I have learned so much from her.
Goodbye Aunty Pat. And may flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
M.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
It’s amazing how much emotion pours from somewhere it’s hard to define or measure. I realize that I have been trying to make sense of love, loss, fear, excitement for all of my life, trying to understand it or quantify it, or maybe just to avoid feeling it!
I discussed with someone I love dearly the concept of logic. That logic is a tool that can’t measure emotion or it’s cause adequately. That logic is something that you can use to deduct reasonably the causes and effects in reality. But that it is in many sense useless to deduct the cause of things outside our normal range of perception, such as where emotion comes from or why we feel. I had an awareness that I use logic to avoid feeling. That I go up into my head and try to figure out WHY I am feeling, or explain WHAT is happening. But this is a strategy to avoid feeling the feeling itself.
When someone dies it is always a great opportunity. This is a hackneyed idea, but probably because it is so true. I am noticing how much feeling I have, how much emotion I am capable of feeling, and that this is just what it is. That I would need to control it is really a problem, not the feeling itself.
M.
Love is a self generated experience of magnificence, a deep connection with oneself that produces, as an emergent property of seeing reality for what it is, an emotional and mental sense of joy and appreciation for the beauty and perfection of what it is to be human.
Hi Holiness the Dalai Lama once defined love as a “complex state of attachment” which is why I named my record after the statement.
M.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
“All this hope for something happening in society has to wait for something in the human psyche, a whole new way of experiencing a society.”
Joseph Campbell
It occurs to me that the world is ambivalent to us. It’s neither good or bad, it just is. We make the world good or bad for ourselves, so we have to decide for ourselves if we want to live in a good or a bad place. No matter how much we want to follow an impulse to complain, suffer or destroy anything that exists, we are creating our world with each action and each choice. So really it’s a question of what kind of world do you want to live in – a primitive world where we beat each other down to get what we believe we need? Or a civilized world where we find a better way…
I believe the Earth is a place for Love.
Mark.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
i just remembered: everything I see is me.
It can be lonely in here all by yourself. Existential isolation is a bitch.
M.
Love comes from you, not others! I just figured this out!! Thanks to some help from some of the most amazing friends I have ever known. This love, this thing I have been trying to get from everyone else for so long, this thing I feel so lost without and “can’t live” without those who I think give it to me, comes from me! Not them!
It’s in you! How could it be otherwise???
M.
